Is: Short. Red headed. Passionate. Sarcastic. Lazy. Future geologist. Bubble gum lover. Music fan. Art fan. Tea obsessed. Chocolate addict. Photoshop geek. Nerd-to-the-max. Candle fan.

Likes: Books. Horror movies. acting. adobe photoshop. Art. Computers. Dogs. Drawing. Dreams. equal rights. Fantasy. Food. Freedom of speech. Graphic design. guild wars. History. Internet. Movies. music. open mindedness. Photography. role playing games. Sarcasm. stargate atlantis. stargate sg-1. tolerance. video games. Writing.

I've really gotten out of the habit of writing... period. I've stopped writing on the various RP boards I belong to, I've stopped writing here, and... well, I've just stopped writing period. I've got no inspiration and no motivation for anything. I'm supposed to design a layout for this Star Wars RP, but I just can't get into the mindset for it. I guess I've sunken deeper into this slump I seem to be in. It's a bit like..., no it is depression. I know I should talk to my doctors about it but I don't want to bring up the comments on suicide because then I'd have to honest and tell them that yeah, I've had thoughts, lots of thoughts on suicide. Gods know I've got the means and the privacy to do it pretty much anyway I could think of, but what I don't have is the guts to do it. All I have to is think about how bad the rest of the world has it and it repeatedly dawns on me that my death wouldn't do the world any good and it would only make people around me sad. And if there's one thing this world doesn't need more of it's sadness. I just wish other people, people with tons of money to spare, could seen things my way.

Like that dumb blonde stick bitch Paris Hilton, here she is with unlimited access to nigh unlimited funds and she goes around spending that money on booze, drugs, pornos and gods know what else when she could be donating money to all these great organizations who do great things for AIDS/HIV research and awareness and WHO and all of those other great things that need more attention. See celebs like Bono and Angelina Jolie have got it right; use your fame to helps those who really need the help instead of pursuing your own hedonistic fancies. Uggh.... filthy greedy asshats.

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Feh, So I guess I kinda forgot to update for awhile. I've been really busy with somethings: school, more school, my gaming addiction >..<, helping to create new Star Wars RP forum, school again, chores, and gods knows what else. Time really got away from me and I guess I got a little depressed recanting the past few years of my life. So I kinda took a siesta and made myself feel better. Watched a bunch of movies from Netflix too.

Well, to take a bit of break, I guess I could go into the whole 'gaming addiction' thing. I love to play PC games. The Sims, Oblivion, Civilization IV, Black and White 2, and pretty much any MMORPG that I don't pay for monthly.*cough*Guild Wars*cough* I enjoy the excitement and at the same time the relaxment that I get from letting go of reality for awhile and just enjoying the pleasure of beating the living hell out of some poor pathetic computer generated.... thing. Hey its for me to do it where it isn't real and doesn't cause a living thing pain, then in the real world with living things, people included, even though half the time I just want to strangle some of these idiots who can't seem to grasp that life doesn't revolve around them and their damn click. I just wish everyone on the planet had a better and firmer grasp on reality and logic; it sure would make the world a better place to live in, for all of us.